Back to skool

This august has been a little bit of an emotional rollercoaster for me.  I finished my college course in June & since then I have been having doubts about my future career choice.

Not being one for academics, In High school I always veered towards the creative subjects like taking Art & Design, Textiles, Graphics, I loved it. As soon as I finished I went straight to my local college to do photography, which I loved. I LOVE being behind the camera & it is a bit of a passion but with the course I chose (& I imagine it's like this on nearly every single photography course these days) it was basically 80% on photoshop & 20% behind the camera if you get me.

I am a complete technophobe & hated editing my photos for hours so after 3 months I thought I had better get off the course asap because it wasnt for me & do my own photography on the sidelines. I then went straight onto my next course to do Theatrical & Media make up, which was part fashion photography.

I loved the course & creating high fashion looks & fantasy makeup but after a couple of months  steered clear of the fashion side & I fell head over heels in love with Special effects & film make up. Two years of devotion to that course got me into London Imats (Which I seriously recommend! Such an amazing experience) & a full portfolio.

I then finished my course, moved to the country side & got a job as a waitress & applied to countless production companies & the BBC but after a while, with no replies I kind of lost confidence & hope & gave up (which I really shouldn't have done) but I also think it was down to the college bringing out brand new products that basically replaced everything that my course had covered just as I left kind of making my two year course a little pointless. 

So I just kept at my job but in a weird way I fretted that I didn't have a career goal & got quite emotional over it as I haven't got any qualifications apart from my Gcse's & all though the money is good at a Michelin star restaurant I don't want to be there forever so I thought of going back to college to a course in childcare. I want a job where I can go straight into & earn money not having to fight for a job I love in such a competitive industry for just the odd £200 on the side for each placement. 

I thought childcare would be perfect as I can be active, comfortable, having fun & not be stuck in an office (that would drive me insane!) plus I am a big kid myself. I change my mind so often & I hate being stuck in one place for a long stretch of time so my new goal is to become an Au pere & go abroad.

So I am really happy with my new choice even though it means another two years in college but I feel better now that I have something to work towards. I start tomorrow & I am quite excited :)

I made a few sets on "back to college" 
(honestly it somehow made me feel more organised for when I start!)

{Folders. My Ipad which I am having as a birthday treat to myself. Notepad. Post its. Pens & Pencils. Pencil case}

In my bag

{New Topshop satchel. Iphone also a birthday treat (Ipad & Iphone bundle on Orange). Purse. Raybans. Book. Make up bag. Head phones. Eos Lip balm}

What to wear

{Grey cardigan. Sleevless blouse. Jeans. Converse. Necklace}

I will be wearing this as I want to be comfy & casual & of course presentable.

Anyone else had doubts about college/uni? I'm all ears!

P.s I apologise for this awfully long post! 



  1. I'm really sorry that you've had to struggle so far to do your dream job, but this is definitely a step in the right direction! I hope tomorrow goes well! x

  2. go with whats in your heart :) a challenge can be a good thing, it makes you really strive for what you want. "pick a job for who you want to be not what you want to be" :) xx

  3. I love all of this, especially the Topshop satchel :) Good luck with your new course. Sophie at Sophie Rose x

  4. Hi Jools, I'm in a very similar situation- I got my degree 4 years ago and haven't used it. I've been working in bars and a coffee shop for 4 years and have now decided I need more of a challenge and more fulfilment. So after lots of voluntary work and some ups and downs I am now due to start my Primary Teacher Training PGCE! I start on Thursday :) Good luck x

  5. nothing worth having ever comes easy! I'm having a rough time breaking into a job at the moment.. it took me about a year to find a direction and now I have it, it's so difficult to find work! I'm just trying to keep my spirits up and apply for jobs all the time. We'll get there eventually! Good luck with everything :)


  6. wow, at least you've got lots of things to fall back on or go back to! And at least you can say you've done all of those things! Well done to you! Good luck for your first day, hope you enjoy it xxx

  7. We all go through different things and it's good that you get to share your personal side on your blog. I admire your honesty and trust me, it can only get better.

    I've been through hell myself and some day, it will just boil down to be stories in the end.

    Good luck! =)

  8. Good luck for your new course, I hope you have fun with it too!

    It's hard finding a career you love and then a job to match to be honest I think it's quite rare.

    At least you have your photogrpahy as a hobby which you can always do and enjoy.

    Luxx Mint

  9. most favourite thing in the world is school. It's where I get my energy, what makes me feel most alive. I just love researching a fascinating subject and having to find ways to communicate my observations/knowledge about it. For some reason that whole learning and storing knowledge thing just gives me a kick! My battle right now is that I don't have the money to be doing what I love (school)...someday my dream is to get to grad school, so I'm just working away and hoping my hubby gets a better job so we can move to grad school someday!

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  10. Sometimes it takes some time to figure out what you want to do, I know it's taken me a while but I think I am finally narrowing down my choice! Good for you for going for what you want =)

    xoxo Bree
    The Urban Umbrella

  11. I'm in a two year college now and it's currently changing me. I just carry a big red messenger bag and with clothes I'm going shopping this weekend because I need me some new clothes badly.

  12. What an amazingly honest post. Rejection can often knock it out of people but well done for finding something you really want to do! Good luck on the course!
    Love the Topshop satchel too :)

  13. Happy back to school to you! Take your time to think of what you want and you will eventually know! I have a feeling it will be a good one for you!

    See you there! :D

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  14. This is a very refreshing post & I'm soooo happy for you. GO GIRL & MORE POWER!!


  15. good luck for your school activities!

  16. OMG! what a great job have you done!!! kisses!!!

  17. Aww, I really hope you enjoy your new course! It's taken me a while to work out what I really want to do but hopefully it'll be worth it in the end :D

  18. it sure isn't easy finding one's way in life
    i admire your tenacity: just remember no experience in life is ever bad; we learn equally from our mistakes
    good luck with your new start: walk tall...
    [meanwhile i have a giveaway/link jolly at mine
    if you have a quiet moment i'd be real happy if you joined it] cheers and cheerio x ... ***

  19. Good luck with starting school again!! I'm sure it'll take you to great places! Have a great weekend!! PS. I'd love it if you could visit my blog and follow me if you like it!! :)


  20. It's a shame about that special effects course but the fact that you have been able to tread so many different paths just highlights how talented you are :) I have no doubt you'll do well.


  21. Great post! Am bringing similar things to school too :)



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